Your body is trying to get your attention. Are you listening? It’s not telling you to work out, get fit or eat right. It’s begging you to listen–to stop what you’re doing and listen.
In his book, THE HEART OF THE SOUL, Gary Zukav talks about an energy system existing concurrently with our biological system. Both systems are vital to our lives. He writes, “As energy is processed at different locations, and in different ways, different emotions result.” Emotions are impulses sent from your soul that communicate with your body at different energy sites. Likewise, your soul is constantly sending messages to your consciousness.
Unfortunately, we get caught up in busy-ness or adopt a lifestyle that is so deafening that we can’t hear what the soul is saying. Headaches, throat problems, chest pains, stomach tenderness and lower back pain are some of the ways that our inattentiveness can manifest in the body.
Taking the advice of the book, I began to take inventory of what was occurring in my energy centers and the underlying emotions fueling those centers. I anticipated proceeding in an organized fashion from the top of my head, center #7, to the base of my torso, center #1, but my stomach felt queasy so I decided to start there.
I touched my solar plexus, the part of my body between my rib cage and my stomach. As my hand rested on my stomach area, I detected energy filling my hand and filling my consciousness. I relaxed my body and emptied my mind. I felt sadness. The sadness became more intense and more agonizing. The image of a person in pain scrunched tightly in a ball came to my awareness. This person radiated an impoverished soul, moaning and groaning, so afraid and so distrusting of everything and everybody. Her voice said repeatedly, “I don’t trust you.” I was stunned by how resolute this person was.
I knew that my stomach had given me trouble in the past. What started as indigestion had worsened over time such that I was prescribed Protonix, kept Tums in my purse and took Maalox before every meal. However, since I had started drinking 6-8 glasses of water per day, the gastric disturbances had subsided. Yet, as I placed my hand on my stomach, my soul’s communication with that energy center was overwhelming. I came face to face with the wounded part of me.
It wasn’t the first time. Initially, it was discovery of a lost part of myself. But she had changed. Once comforted by my arrival, she was now resistant and backing away from me. She was not a guide, helping me resolve the pain of my childhood. Not this time. She was blaming me. This part of me, the wounded child, felt abandoned by me. As I recalled my history and life choices, I understood. I had dragged her from job to job, relationship to relationship, church to church, ignoring her deepest needs. She wasn’t nourished or attended to. Everything else was more important. My inattentiveness only reiterated the messages she received as a child – she didn’t matter. My actions had only compounded her deepest pain.
It is very sobering when you know that you are responsible for the pain that you are in. Sure, you weren’t the one who originally inflicted the pain, but as an adult, you have the choice whether to seek help for your wounded soul or compound the pain by poor, dishonoring choices.
Could it be that struggles with body image and weight have little to do with food and more to do with a malnourished soul? The cry may be out of frustration of not having the attention that really truly matters – yours. Listen to what your body is saying. Lay your hand where it hurts. As a friend, be with that wounded part of you. Listen to it. Identify the feelings. Once you can feel compassion for that wounded or starved part of you, you can then begin to do what’s necessary to heal.